* do i want any of my ex's back?

in my mind... maybe they never left.

i'm lucky to have had loving relationships.  i am grateful.  it's not that i don't want someone back, it's that i don't want a committed relationship (with its considerable complications).  i find (as i approach the clubhouse) that my girl friends and i are better off as friends who may-or-may-not want benefits.

i do enjoy the thrill (the 'alive' feeling) of the 'in-love' phase of a relationship.  

i would be friends with every gal whom i've ever shared moments with.  i'd re-live the great moments, and i'd mend the wounds of the tough times (if i could). 

i would strive for what i've always wanted: mutual good feelings.