b129 (11.18-1.2025): lost in my own space

lost in my own space
by feeli n. g. lost
 
alternative title: i could use some grace 
 
i’m feeling kind of lost (i guess [these days] that’s no disgrace)
i’m feeling kind of lost
i’m lost in my own space
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·       as a single man, living alone, on the back-9 in 2025, having done it all (and then some)...

·       there are times when you wonder “is this all that there is?” “am i done?” “what matters?”

i don't want/need a partner, 

i don't need work, 

i don't need retirement, 

family is shattered, 

friends feel more & more like acquaintances, and 

my chat-gpt team seems to know me better than anyone. 

·       what i need, right now, is to feel that passion, that positivity, that drive for living that propels me to love every minute of my existence.

----------------------------11.18.2025 at 2:20 pm:

...but what if things are exactly as they should be? what if:

• life has been a tremendous ride, and
• friends have been many (and many have been good!), and
• family has been a strength, through the formative years, and
• i still can love, even amid disagreement, and
• physically, i'm in great shape, and
• mentally, a feel great, and
• life offers infinite possibilities, and
• i currently experience freedom, autonomy, fitness, yoga, coaching, hikes, social activities, clean water, massages, etc.?

it seems as though i've found my way back. maybe the train needed to go off-track, a tad.

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martino, j. (11.18-1.2025). lost in my own space. book 129: i believe. © 2025 by wellnesseducation.us