b121 (11.16-1.2024): her drug of choice: desire

her drug of choice: desire [i]
by d. e. sire & r. e. lease

he/r drug of choice: desire
he wished s/he could for-get
the feeling so appealing that s/he started to regret

he/r drug: another calling
his game was keeping score
the ending: a beginning
of always wanting more
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·       whatever the attachment/addiction, the cause is pressure.  

everything happens because of pressure.

·       with pressure, there arises a desire to release the feeling of pressure (or lack thereof).

·       the attachment is the thought of what the “getting” will feel like.  we know what it feels like.
·       the (fleeting, momentary) high is the re-lease of the feeling.
 
for example: we are (naturally) addicted to the process of re-spiration.  we experience ‘pressure’ depending upon oxygen/carbon dioxide levels, and then we inspire (or expire) depending upon pressure.
 
the process… is: pressure-desire-anticipation-release-high-pressure-desire-anticipation-release-high.

                             

the actual ‘drug effect’ (the ‘getting’) …or the 'high' ...is the release of pressure. 
 
the desire is the ‘feeling-bad’ phase.  the anticipation and the drug-effect is not a feel ‘good’ experience (per se) but instead a re-move-all of bad.
 

the re-mov-al of bad – feels good!

of course, feeling good leads to 

wanting more of feeling good, 

which is pressure!

 
if we can get to the state of reduced desire (to feel less bad), the drug’s power over our mind is reduced.  is it possible that…  

Union/Spirit re-Spires (or Knows H/er-Self)

via expiration into apparent separation (ego)…

which yearns to re-member

himself as Spirit

?

 

is G∞d …uh… breathing?

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[i] martino, j. (11.16-1.2024). her drug of choice. book 121: opportunity (on deck). © 2024 by j. martino.

* this might be a round-about way of saying that getting our drug of choice (event-u-all-y) does not make us feel good (per se).  getting the drug temporarily removes the 'feeling bad' (which was the desire) to get the drug.