b121 (11.13-1.2024): she is my toxic ex

she is my toxic ex [i]
by ima ona journey

she is my toxic ex
i say “never again”
she is my toxic ex
can we be (maybe) friends?
 
she is my toxic ex
a pitcher-plant so sweet
she is my toxic ex
i hope we never meet
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·       my toxic ex… is alcohol.  when i was with her:
o   my behavior was bad,
o   my fitness/wellness was ill,
o   my breath was bad,
o   my procrastination was off of the charts,
o   my relationships were superficial,
o   my eating habits were bad,
o   my weight (and % fat) was… well, i was obese,
o   my sleep was affected,
o   my heart and liver were suffering,
o   my cholesterol was a skyrocket,
o   my blood pressure was high,
o   my family & friends knew, and
o   i wasn’t as fun, or funny, or passionate, or good in bed,
o   i wasn’t focused, or aware, or living-up to my potential, and
o   my life (really) wasn’t as fulfilling…
o   …and (even though i was functional), i was worse at my job.
 
when she comes calling… i do not want to go back.  i (really) shouldn’t even open the door!
😊
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[i] martino, j. (11.13-1.2024). she is my toxic ex. book 121: on deck. © 2024 by j. martino.