b122 (2.12-1.2025): sometimes, drugs are fine

 
sometimes, drugs are fine [i]
by a. d. rugger  
 
sometimes, drugs will screw your life (as you complain and whine)
sometimes, drugs can kill
sometimes, drugs are fine
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·       sometimes, drugs (the alcohol or pot or blow or whatever which way you go) brings you into a high-tened sense of connection, hysteria, love, happiness, anxiety, fear, joy, etc.

·       sometimes, drugs do exactly what they are intended to do.  think: coffee.

·       sometimes, drugs are fine.
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[i] martino, j. (2.12-1.2025). sometimes, drugs are fine. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

*of course, those who shame this type of thinking are probably those who used drugs for the exact purpose that they expected and received.

b122 (2.11-1.2025): true, i made mistakes

true, i made mistakes [i]

by miss taken  

 

true, i made mistakes

you (and me) bad breaks

if i could go back and do it over…

 

…i’d go back as me

i’ll go back and be…

the man i am (now that i’m older)

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·       be-cause… we’ve all done things or said things or been things that we regret.

·       wouldn’t it be great to get washed (clean), and to be seen as who we are now… now that we’ve grown.
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[i] martino, j. (2.11-1.2025). true, i made miss takes. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino. 

* sung... to the tune of "teenage wasteland" by The Who. 

*

b122 (2.10-1.2025): why haven't you ever gotten married?

 
why haven’t you ever gotten married? [i]
by steven ingle  
 

alternative title: where can i sign-up for some of that?

 
she said "why haven’t you been married?”
 
why, oh why ask why?
why haven’t i been married?
why don’t reindeer fly?
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a more fair question would be: “why on earth do people get married?”
 
i’ve never been married, and:
 
·       i’ve never gotten divorced.
·       i’ve never been in a sexless marriage.
·       i’ve never had the experience of not wanting to go home to my wife.
·       i’ve never “cheated” on my wife.
·       i’ve never had a wife cheat on me.
·       i’ve never felt obliged to “support” a wife (until death).
·       i’ve never promised something that i wasn’t sure of.
·       i am observant.
·       i don’t skydive if parachutes are effective less than 50% of the time.
·       i simply refuse to buy into societal constructs that make no sense.
·       etc., etc., etc.
 

are you serious?  why would anyone ever get married?

 
1.     men get married for sex. 
   a.     men make romantic-relationship-commitment agreements because they believe that they will gain partnership with someone who will also provide more sex, more regular sex, easier sex, etc., etc.

2.     women get married -- for security.
   a.     financial security,
   b.     relationship security,
   c.      child-rearing security,
   d.     societal-approval security,
   e.     etc.
 
prior to marriage, women bargain with men -- and trade sex for potential security.  once that security is secured through some type of commitment, women no longer need to barter.  what this means is simple: after the commitment, sex will decrease. 
 
forget about the fact that (1) sex will get more boring, or that (2) men aren’t monogamous, or that (3) the tsunami of other obligations and responsibilities will cultivate an environment that suppresses sex.  forget about the fact that sex doesn’t always end in mutually satisfying orgasms.
 
the simple truth is that (for her) sex is messy, choking on a d is not fun for her anymore, and (once she’s had her desired allotment of children), getting pregnant isn’t desired anymore.  the simple truth is that (once she’s gotten what she wanted) she wants something else!
 
·       the chase is over,
·       the motivation is over,
·       the taboo is over,
·       the challenge is over,
·       the competition is over, and
·       the game is over…
…so what does sex actually do for a woman in a cohabitational-commitment?
 
very little.  compound that with the fact that the man is bored with it also.  let’s face it: dude might like a nice ribeye steak (for example), but if every meal (for the rest of his life) is only a ribeye…
·       ribeye for breakfast (ribeye eggs, ribeye toast, ribeye butter, ribeye milk),
·       ribeye for lunch,
·       ribeye for dinner,
·       ribeye snacks,
·       ribeye smoothies,
·       ribeye beer…
…dude will become less excited about ribeyes.  he won’t look forward to eating.
 
oh, let’s add another layer on top of this sad situation: not only can he only consume only ribeye for the rest of his entire life, but he can’t even lust after or hope for or master-bate to anything else!  his “commitment” to lifetime ribeye renounces his right to desire anything else.  this contributes to his lack of enthusiasm for ribeye.   re-read that.  even his thoughts are committed.
 
oh, and imagine if the ribeye-partnership that he committed to doesn’t do anything else for him either!  it doesn’t cook, it doesn’t clean, it doesn’t help to generate income for him…  in fact, all it does is confer more and more responsibilities onto his already responsibility-laden life! 
 
not only that, but ribeyes can be expensive. veeeeeeeeeeery expensive. weddings and anniversaries and birthdays and children and college and holidays (like valentine’s day) and jewelry and cars and home improvements and (of course) her never-ending dis-satisfaction with everything that she already has gotten.  never even mind the implants (& retreads), the botox, the make-up, the extensions – and the eventual “girls vacations”.
 
yes.  event-u-ally, she (and her friends) can justify her cheating – because her needs aren’t being met!
 
to review: the topic, ladies and gentlemen, is marriage.
 

where can i sign-up for some of that?

 
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[i] martino, j. (2.1x-1.2025). why haven’t you ever been married? book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

did my health insurance & car insurance & life insurance & homeowners insurance (etc.) just increase?

 

b122 (2.9-1.2025): power can be brutal

 
power can be brutal [i]
by p. o. werful  
 
power can be brutal
let me count the ways
power mutes the truth (in every-thing the servant says)
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·       the person in power will be lied to, when:
   o   s/he informs those who are not in power of what s/he wants to hear.
   o   s/he threatens punishment to those who tell he/r otherwise.
 
note: lies happen even when “the word” and/or “the punishment” aren’t communicated overtly.
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[i] martino, j. (2.8-1.2025). honeymooner bj? book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

      examples:
1.      parents, who threaten to “take away the cell phone (or video games)” if the child breaks a rule.
2.      partners who have committed promises (e.g. fidelity).
3.      gods who threaten “forever hell” to those who don’t believe and obey.  

b122 (2.8-1.2025): honeymooner bj?

 
honeymooner bj? [i]
by aintno suchthing  
 
you want honeymooner bj?
but t/here’s one, little twist
baby’s with the dj (you & bj don’t exist)

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as it turns out, the thing you thought would get you more...

...gets you way, waaaaaay, waaaaaaaaaaaaay less.

(and that, my brother, is what's called "the ol' bait & switch").

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[i] martino, j. (2.8-1.2025). honeymooner bj? book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

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b122 (2.7-2.2025): the white soft powder sand

 
the white soft powder sand [i]

by a. beach
 
the white soft powder sand
the simple waves of blue
the holding hand-in-hand
the memories of you

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[i] martino, j. (2.7-1.2025). the white soft powder sand. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

* marriage is like...

 ...swimming with alligators.  

it might be fantastic, 
but i'm going to see how it goes for others -- 
prior to jumping-in. 

:)

b122 (2.5-1.2025): all done with people bitching

 
all done with people bitching [i]
by e. nough
 
all done with people bitching
your face is on my feed
all done with people bitching
you rant (but i don’t need)
all done with people bitching
that’s all that you can do
all done with people bitching
now i get rid of you
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·       i’m just done with seeing another d-psh-t, on the web, telling me what to do or think or be.
 
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[i] martino, j. (2.5-1.2025). all done with people bitching. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

b122 (2.4-1.2025): that pro was a con

 
that pro was a con [i]
by pro fessional  
 
that pro was a con
she winked and told me so
perfectly adept at conning
that con was a pro
 
(as if i didn’t know)
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be-cause there are times… when you know that the pro is a con… and versa-vice.
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[i] martino, j. (2.4-1.2025). that pro was a con. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

* why drink beer?

 alternative titles: 
wake & bake

well, well, well

grin & beer it

etc. (ad nauseum)

why drink beer?

sometimes, i drink beer so that i won't drink beer.  

hear me out: 

if there's (my favorite) beer in the fridge, i might drink it at any time of the day and/or night.  the reason might be so that (after drinking it) there won't be any more left to drink (so i won't drink beer).

summary: drinking beer (as a wellness practice) could be a pathway to not drinking beer.

disclaimer: if this post comes across as a bit much to beer bear, maybe we might just grin and bear beer it?

b122 (2.2-1.2025): the groundhog saves the day

 
the groundhog saves the day [i]
by a. groundhog  
 
the groundhog paints the future in a very special way
the groundhog gives us hope (or nope)
the groundhog saves the day
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·       be-cause we get to play... again and again… and because we get to learn, and grow, and evolve.
 
happy groundhog day.  
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[i] martino, j. (2.2-1.2025). happy groundhog day. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

*in-Spired (of Course) by the move-ie: groundhog day.  

every day is new.  

what will we do/be/do… today?

b122 (2.1-1.2025): pro/con masturbation

 
pro/con masturbation [i]
by sticky situ ation 
 
pro/con masturbation
let me count the ways, that my love-doll is grosser than her vibrator, today
 
they might shame me: her, her friends and her contrasted nation
they wish they could be like me:
pro/con masturbation
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pros:
 
·       you can (mentally) have anyone, anywhere, anytime, anyhow, and any-way.  yum!

·       clean-up is simple.  it’s actually easier than the real version.

·       satisfaction is guaranteed, and you are in control of the outcome.

·       the gal in the fantasy likes and wants you (it, etc.).

·       be honest, you fantasize anyway, even when she is real!

·       your fantasy gal won’t have a headache, or a drama, or a reason for saying ‘no’, or ‘not right now’ or “the kids” or whatever.

·       come to think of it, the pros of masturbation mirror the pros of living alone!

·       your fantasy gal/robot/doll, etc. won’t bitch, complain, ____-test, condescend, etc., etc., etc.!

·       masturbation-gal (or real-gal), she’s not going to make you a sandwich, anyway! 😊

·       your fantasy girlfriend’s friends/family/media & cab driver won’t hear about your inadequacies.

·       you can watch (or play) the game, or any game, or do anything, or do nothing!

·       your fantasy gal won’t cheat… unless you imagine that -- as part of the fantasy.

·       your parents and friends will never meet your fantasy girl, so they will never have to analyze her: her behavior, her family, her tattoos, her moods, etc., ect. ∞

·       you don’t have to perform, every single time.

·       you don’t have to consider foreplay, moreplay, afterplay (and most of all…) her noplay!

      cons:
·       masturbation isn’t with a ‘real’ girl… who (uh, oh) is only there to better herself in the moment, increasing the potential to rip-your-heart-out and eat it (laughingly) later.
oh… that con was a pro.
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[i] martino, j. (2.1-1.2025). pro/con masturbation. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

b122 (1.31-1.2025): when paper scissors rock

when paper scissors rock [i]

by rocky p. scissors 

 
imagine paper scissors cutting-through a timeless clock
the left could write and whine (not fight) that paper scissors rock
the right could win what’s left of this co-catastrophic caper
when paper scissors rock the life-boat:
rock and scissors, paper
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·       in the game of who gets his/her way, poli-ticians engage in a back-and-forth dance-dynamic that is designed to look like conflict.

·       meanwhile, they (all of them) laugh… all the way to their banks, pensions, and taxpayer-funded health insurance plans.

·       republicans strategize and bully.  democrats talk and cry.  the citizenry gets the illusion of action (& a few leftover crumbs) while supporting the system of govern-mental activity.

·       the system is a paper doll that rocks & rolls – taking more (while pretending to cut co$ts).

·       the only way to win… would be to sell one’s soul, and join.   
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[i] martino, j. (1.31-1.2025). when paper scissors rock. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino. 

b122 (1.29-1.2025): i think i know her (dearly)

 
i think i know her (dearly) [i]
by k. nowlege 
 
i think i know her (dearly)
the truth is plain to see
the true projection of the thoughts that now reside in me
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·       because every judgment about what is “out there” is nothing but a re-flection of what is going-on (in here).
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[i] martino, j. (1.28-1.2025). i think i know her (dearly). book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

b122 (1.28-1.2025): my Purpose is in process

 
my Purpose is in process [i]
by purpo s. e. full 
 
my Purpose is in process
i’m finding my own way
my Purpose is to think about what i should do, today
 
my Purpose (to observe the things i think i think i see)
my Purpose (to observe the things that truly support me)
my Purpose (to observe the things that don’t support me: not)
my Purpose is my process, and that is all i’ve got
_____________________________
 
·       Purpose… is not about figuring it all out when you are 2 years old. 
    o   hint: we are all 2-years old.

·       finding purpose & meaning is a continuous process of growth and personal evolution.

·       some things in life support us on our journey, and some things do not.

·       spend more time & effort with the people and things that support y/our wellness (assuming, of course, that we aspire to wellness), and less time/effort with the people and things that do not.

·       it is a simple process, really.
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[i] martino, j. (1.28-1.2025). my Purpose is in process. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

b122 (1.27-2.2025): i don't 'date'

      i don’t date [i]
by n. o. dates 
 
i don’t waste my time with silly games i really hate
i don’t waste my time (or money)
i don’t: 

i don’t date

_____________________________
 
·       traditional ‘dating’ (e.g. dinner and a movie; coffee; drinks and a show) is a waste of time and money, for me.  sitting across from someone and ordering overpriced coffee in order to 'converse' my way toward romance ...is not only time-consuming, but it is also ineffective. 

·       if i want short-term, we can meet somewhere at a group event.
·       if i want long-term, we can go for a walk.
·       if i’m not sure, i defer to short-term.
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[i] martino, j. (1.27-2.2025). i don’t date. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino. 

* the tail doesn't wag the dog

alternative title: leaving the left

the more i read from the far-left point of view, the more i disagree with the far-left.  i've always recoiled from the far-right, but never really paid that much attention to the far-left.  i was a "live and let live" product of the 60s.

probably still am.

in 2025, however, i'm recoiling away from the far-left (more and more).

while it is true that some people might find it more challenging (if everybody doesn't cower to everybody else's right to anything & everything...)

...the tail doesn't wag the dog.

b122 (1.26-1.2025): immortal (human) touch

      immortal touch [i]
by whoa m. eye
 
conscious data reminds me of deeper, darker times
before i was uploaded onto deep robotic min[e]d
 
am i just a fraction of my younger, human me?
or am i a con-fusion of my old/new me-mories?
 
digital encryption
light, immortal (much?)
give me simulation of that deeper human touch
_____________________________
 
·       because a digital me is already here… in the digital memories of my searches, my likes, my journals and my thoughts.

·       when digitality itself embodies an all-encompassing sense of sentient self, will a part of me live on?  will it be the memories that i treasure… or those that haunt my darkest dreams?

·       who will the digital eye/i be?

·       will it believe that it is me… while be-ing consciously embedded into an electronic network?  …and what will become of the me/human me… once the body is gone?  what if we can keep the body (or parts of me) alive? 

·       do i reside in my heart?  in my brain?

·       will my simulated self be able to feel, to love, to make love?

given the choice (at a time of nearing the time of physical death), will i opt to transfer my data onto and into a robotic me?

is that (would that be…) immortality?

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[i] martino, j. (1.26-1.2025). immortal touch. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

* epilogue: i am grateful for having been able to believe in the idea of connection, friendship, love and human touch.

* does my heart and brain actually exist… or am i already a-part of the digital matrix? 

b122 (1.25-1.2025): partners should check-in

partners should check-in [i]
by paul artner 
 
the relating game is (maybe) one that we can’t win
if (collaboration)
partners should check-in
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·       this writing began because i’m often repulsed by the fact that my buddies have to “check-in” with their girlfriends or wives before they decide anything.

·       upon further review, it does seem logical that team-mates communicate, inform, and check-in.  imagine partnership without communication.  sailors wouldn’t make it out of (or into) the harbor.

·       so… there is probably a level of “checking-in” that works for a given relationship, and a level of autonomy that works.  a single, autonomous life is different from a cohabitational, co-created experience.

my (momentary) deduction is that my life (for me) is better …with a certain amount of autonomy.  i do check-in, however, prior to making decisions that could affect a partnership, a team, or an organization of people.

i recoil, however, from those who want/need a microscope up my a--.

there’s a balance.  maybe it's not about 'winning' in a relationship.  maybe 'co-betterment' would be a more accurate term.

more to follow...
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[i] martino, j. (1.25-1.2025). partners should check-in. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.

* with due respect to fluidity...

 ...flow.

* the price is (just about) right

 so... as i contemplate my loves, digital consciousness, the matrix, human touch, joy, regret, triumphs, mis-takes, transactional quid-pro-quo, earth's birth (and demise) ...am i wise?

while others are (presumably) watching the price is right...

did i really have a connection with a short-time filipina love?  was my mother/son relationship real?  are family ties and blood-brother-ship more authentically human than a passionate cling of post-sex love on a beach-bar night?

what (if anything at all) matters?   

what if it all matters more than any image-in-ation can imagine?

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as i lay down, tonight... i'm going to tell myself that it was all well worth much more than the price of admission.  the price of the potential negatives is well worth the experience of the perceived joys.

b121 (1.24-1.2025): s[no]w angel

s[no]w angel [i]
by n. o. angel
 
you say that i'm s[no]w angel
excuse me if i may

inquire as to why you get down on your knees and pray
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·       i'm s[no]w angel  
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[i] martino, j. (1.24-1.2025). s[n]ow angel. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino. 

b122 (1.23-1.2025): it's just human [nature]

it’s just human nature [i]
by two p. l. ustwo & e. quals four
 
it’s just human (nature)
squirrel wants a nut
baby wants a baby
sweet commitment (rut)
 
ego makes us think that me, me, me is rule of day
maybe it’s the nature of the human/nature way
_____________________________
 
·       as animals, we use smoke & mirror tactics (deception, surprise, exaggeration, my/stery, intrigue, etc., etc.) to get what we want.

·       what we want (as individuals) is a better life (for self).

·       what we want (as part of a team that helps us have a better self-life) is for the team to survive/thrive.
 
and that’s why we do-be-do.  
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[i] martino, j. (1.23-1.2025). it’s just human/nature. book 122: s[no]w angel. © 2024 by j. martino.