riverfront bingo

tonight marked the first (annual?) riverfront bingo night.  to describe it as 'glorious' would be an injustice.

people of different genders and races and religious persuasions and political sides actually communed... to create an atmosphere of happiness, fun, passion, banter, acceptance, cooperation and (did he mention) fun?!?

couples, neighbors, parents and children... coming together and connected by a game.

i'm not sure if riverfront will ever be the same.

"...you are beautiful, riverfront."

re-Quest

re-Quest [1]
by r. e. quested
 
acting in a way to entertain, re-New, In-vest
acting (come what may) another day to Play:
 
re-Quest

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[1] martino, j. (4.9-1.22). re-Quest. book 109: a new, new day. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.
[2] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kIavuY5NXw

[3] re-Quest: to watch galaxy quest... again, and again, and again. 

outliers...

...are (often) several standard-deviations away from the mean. does that mean 'tender'?

https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/mean

not even i keep up with me

not even i keep up with me [1]
by s. u. percharged
 
writing/reading/contemplation, sun and moon and sea
one thing i can say, not even i keep up with me
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·       precisely why i shouldn’t expect anyone else to.
 
note: “to be known” is a nice saying, but knowingness itself flows along a continuum. if it takes lifetimes to know oneself subjectively, why does society persuade us to know one-another, objectively?
 
maybe society (in pain) is projecting… and shoulding-all-over itself.
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[1] martino, j. (4.7-4.22). not even i keep up with me. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

quitcha bitchin

quitcha bitchin [1]
by a. dog, n. amed & quitcha bitchin
 
my owner named me ‘bitchin’ but my momma said “don’t quit”
if i am a sport, you’ll never get enough of this
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·       because barkin’ & bitchin’ is just my nature.  it’s just done to shake-off a little stress.
 
note: when male humans bitch about sports, it's not bitching.  that’s called “in-depth analysis.”
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[1] martino, j. (4.7-3.22). quicha bitchin. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.
[2] a dog named bitchin

. 

"you offended me!"

 “you offended me!” [1]
by insome kinda pain
 
it seems i got offended, but (to take the blame off me)…
let’s call the roles reversed as i say: “you offended me!”
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·       “you offended me!” takes absolutely no responsibility for itself.
 
when one digs (even a tiny bit) deeper, however, it becomes obvious that the offended is (really) saying much more about himself than he is about the offender.
 
in most cases, ann landers had it right: “no one can take advantage of you without your permission.”
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[1] martino, j. (4.7-2.22). “you offended me!” book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

of sayings

regarding this blog: "it's all in a day's work." 

https://news.onecountry.com/entertainment/10-common-sayings-that-arent-exactly-true/

 "all's well that ends well." 
(but who did it end well for? ...and did it really "end"?)

candy saw the signs

candy saw the signs [1]
by insome pain
 
candy saw the writing on the wall (and in her mind)
candy played the game, and then
candy saw the signs
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·       i’m often re-mind-ed of how we all play the game of life and love.  it’s not a brutally honest game, nor should it be.

·       the mind can kid itself into seeing ghosts, gods, signs, and santas.  why not let it kid us into everlasting Bliss?  after all, it feels good.

·       after knowing many, many people who have seen the signs (even on the way up to the altar), i’ve come to believe that there are no such things as signs.  there is no such thing as leading someone on.

·       as a living being on planet earth, it is up to each of us, as individuals… to observe, to analyze, to inquire, to deduce, and to take-action in alignment with that which is best for us.

responsibility: the ability to respond 

(it's an inside job).

·       the translation of “s/he led me on.” is (really) “i led myself on.”

·       the translation of “s/he lied to me.” is (really) “i allowed myself to be deceived, because it was my best course of action at that time.”

·       if i allow myself to get duped, then my best course of action is as follows: 

    1. re-view the scenario, 

    2. decide the best course of action to take, next time.  

for me to chastise the dupe-err… would simply be projection: projection-being-what-projection-do.

hard note: those who get duped... again and again and again and again... probably shouldn't reproduce. 

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[1] martino, j. (4.7-1.22). candy saw the signs. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

[2] won't don't get fooled again

tonya is in pain

tonya is in pain [1]
by anna pain
 
tonya is a pain
seems she has a need
seems she is insane
just a wild seed
seems she needs to flex her power, seems she feels suppressed
tonya is a pain
tonya is a mess
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·       luckily, i understand the ramifications about reacting honestly (and even assertively).

 
·       my (known) choice... is to back away, to allow her to rant, to give her her 'a', and to chant… when she (finally) goes away.

in this race, she's already won.  the only thing that matters is how much she wants to win by.
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[1] martino, j. (4.6-2.22). tonya is a pain. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

"our offense was offensive"

“…and our offense? it was offensive!” [1]

-al morro, circa de 1975

 

busy little bee
lets me sleep at night
busy little bee
carpenter in flight
 
i bitch that i can’t fly, but i believe what i can’t see!
a roller-coaster ride
busy little bee
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·       “wait a second… did joal just reincarnate Jesus into a be-e?  how offensive!”

·       of course, i could be offended by the carpenter bee, or i could see… that may-be… he is just Bee-ing.  bumbling and Bee-ing are just what he do.

·       i could, of course, see it in another (completely positive) way:
   o   he doesn’t buzz my window, at night.
   o   he helps to take my mind off of the tinnitus.
   o   he gives the hummingbirds the kind of workout that may save their lives, someday.
   o   he… might not even bee a he!  😊
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[1] martino, j. (4.6-1.22). “…and our offense? It was offensive!” book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.
[2] of course, i don’t rule-out that he won’t get swatted, if he decides to chow-down on my back deck.
[3] “busy… little… bee” was also a great line from the movie “gladiators.”

b109 (4.6-1.2022): "our offense was offensive"

“…and our offense? it was offensive!” [1]

-al morro, circa de 1975

alternative title: busy little Be/e

busy little bee

lets me sleep at night

busy little bee

carpenter in flight

 

i bitch that i can’t fly, but i believe what i can’t see

a roller-coaster ride

busy little bee

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·       “wait a second… did he just reincarnate Jesus into a be-e? how offensive!”

·       of course, i could be offended by the carpenter bee, or i could see… that may-be… he is just Bee-ing.  bumbling and Bee-ing are just what he do.

·       i could, of course, see it in another (completely positive) way:
   o   he doesn’t buzz my window, at night.
   o   he helps to take my mind off of the tinnitus.
   o   he gives the hummingbirds the kind of workout that may save their lives, someday.
   o   he… might not even bee a he!

😊

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[1] martino, j. (4.6-1.22). “…and our offense? It was offensive!” book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

[2] of course, i don’t rule-out that he won’t get swatted, if he decides to chow-down on my back deck.  update (2023): two... so far. 

[3] “busy… little… bee” was also a great line from the movie “gladiators.”. 

just an observation...

the be-ing referred to as 'joal' is deeply, extremely affected by certain music. 

paradoxically...

some of the most easily offended can be the most offensive.  some of the most detached can be the most loving.  the insensitive among us are probably one step away from being broken by the littlest comment.

anything but mine

another morning, another gem by kenny chesney. 

he captures the feeling of young, summer love in panama city beach, florida -- where, back in my heyday, "the miracle mile" was just a slice of "the redneck riviera."

there is something about the anticipation.  the social phenomenon of the beach frenzy: groups of partiers, catamarans, waverunners, beer-bongs, bikinis, laughter... and mutually exchanged glances.

the connection (and the heat).  young (soon-to-be) lovers.  the beat of the beachside clubs.  holding hands,  walking the beach, and sharing a sunset/rise.

...and (of course), the time when it's time to (sadly) leave p.c.b.  

oh, and that last kiss might never end.

https://www.google.com/search?q=panama+city+beach+florida+miracle+mile&tbm=isch&ved=2ahUKEwjIo8C79_z2AhUJBlMKHdq7CqwQ2-cCegQIABAA&oq=panama+city+beach+florida+miracle+mile&gs_lcp=CgNpbWcQAzoHCCMQ7wMQJzoFCAAQgAQ6BggAEAgQHjoECAAQHjoECAAQGFCQJljNN2CxPGgAcAB4AYAB5gGIAfcIkgEGMTMuMC4xmAEAoAEBqgELZ3dzLXdpei1pbWfAAQE&sclient=img&ei=VzdMYoicE4mMzALa96rgCg&bih=929&biw=1920

b109 (4.5-3.2025): if this is just a matrix...

if this is just a matrix (i don't care) [1]
by si[c]xth senses
 
if this is just a matrix (i don’t care)
with chills and spills and beauty everywhere
since living souls can touch and hug and share
if this is just a matrix (i don’t care)
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·    if the 6^th sense is intelligence, or common sense, or awareness, or even a computer-generated hologram, it (obviously) can be felt via the bodymind.

·  okay, okay… maybe in line three "since living souls" should be “since the observed projection of a living soul…” (but it doesn’t rhyme, and there’s no passion in that 'truer' line).

·     IMHO, it would be far better to experience a finite Play… than to be trapped in an everlasting heaven.
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[1] martino, j. (4.5-3.22). if this is just a matrix (i don’t care). book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

the tender, lovely moon

the tender, lovely moon [1]
by skye a. blaze
 
high above the clouds
life couldn’t come too soon
there and then and Now
the tender, lovely moon

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[1] martino, j. (4.5-2.22). the tender, lovely moon. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

my arms around your skin

my arms around your skin [1]
by igo back
 
they say “those days are gone” (i say “let’s resurrect again”)
Love can be re-born, with
my arms around your skin
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·       the past is never fully gone, insomuch as it can be resurrected in the mind.
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[1] martino, j. (4.5-1.22). my arms around your skin. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

meiiiouwrrr!

meiiiouwrrr! [1]
by ima cat atonic

alternative title: translation 

i hear you whining, freely
it seems that’s what you do
we have one thing in common
okay: my pussy hurts, too
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·       cats have absolutely no patience for others’ whining.
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[1] martino, j. (4.4-4.22). meiiiouwrrr! book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

every single one of us...

every single one of us... [1]
by psycho delic
 
every single one of us has issues
every single one of us (unique)
every single one of us (psychotic)
every single one of us (a freak)
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·       even the most perfect person who you’ve ever known has his/her phobias, darkness, demons, and issues.

·       we try to hide our own issues by pointing-out those of others.  it’s (textbook) projection.
 
the learning point, for me, is to re-cognize when i’m projecting… and then to go inward, and try to figure out why i’m in pain.
 
no. i don’t have to figure out why.  it might be best just to note that i’m in some kind of pain, and to hang-out with her for a tad.
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[1] martino, j. (4.4-3.22). every single one of us. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

capitalism(ism) offense

capital(ism) offense [1]
by oscar f. fended
 
·       with capitalism, when political law-makers have given ‘corporations’ the same rights as people…
·       corporations do what corporations are supposed to do: make profits.
·       political lawyers are (uh) ‘rewarded’ for their votes by lobbyists who actually decide the votes (you guessed it) prior to the vote.
·       dems & pubs are on the same team, kiddies!
·       lawyers (e.g. divorce lawyers) simply bill-out at as much as the market will bear. they just don’t care. the more a (former) couple argues, the more the lawyers make!  this isn't rocket science or difficult math: they don’t care about ending the conflict, at all.  at all.  at all!
·       health care providers bill-out for as much as the insurance companies will pay.
·       insurance companies do their best not to pay.
 
and so it goes, around and around.  it’s a capital(ism) offense, and every system is just doing the best that it can to make more capital.
 
here’s my solution: make less money.  barter.  hide. use cash, when possible.  be untraceable, whenever you can.  stage insurgencies (not to keep assholes in power, but to purge the sh—out of washington -- and out of our divorce courts).
 
i’ve never even been married (and i still hate divorce lawyers).
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·       albert martineau (in one of his worst moments)... actually was dead-on-balls-accurate… when he said (and i quote): 

“don’t.”

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[1] martino, j. (4.4-2.2022). capital(ism) offense. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

this is why we do it:

 from Jaden S. Love (a former student) to Joal:

Sat 4/2/2022 1:48 PM

To: (j

Hey this is Jaden Love I was in your weight lifting class for last falls semester. I was training to be in the airforce and told you all about it. I graduated around 2 weeks ago and i reached the goals that I was striving for. Sadly BMT hasn’t been doing PT awards since Covid started. But in the end I finished my last test with 83 push-ups in a minute, 82 sit-ups in a minute, and a 1 1/2 mile run in 9 minutes and 20 seconds. I was very happy to hit that goal and I’m going to keep striving for more. Also, I can’t thank you enough for all the help and tips when it came to my training. It helped a lot to have someone there that not only motivated me but pointed me in the right direction to reach my goals. I was the best in my flight, and with everything you helped me with and my own knowledge I was able to help a lot of the people in my flight with reaching their goals as well. I wound up doing a lot of training with other people to get their PT scores up so we could all graduate together. Even had to pace someone for their run when they failed it the first time. It was a lot of fun but I’d also never want to go back. But I enjoyed the experience and now I’m in my tech school for munition systems. A lot more freedom here for sure. But all in all, I just wanted to reach out and let you know how I turned out and how much I appreciate all the help you gave me. I hope you keep the same energy for everyone else that will come to you in the future. Even if it was something small, it affects all of us in a big way. 

Sincerely,

Jaden Love

whitewater sounds

whitewater sounds [1]
by pre-tend
 
i love the sound of water
gently down the stream
flowing from a fountain
rushing (we can dream)
waving and then crashing (blue surf upon white beach)
i love the sound of water, and i still value each…
 
experience
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·       it is going to be a good summer.
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[1] martino, j. (4.4-1.22). whitewater sounds. book 109: tender. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.