b123 (5.9-1.2025): 40s-60s gossip

      40s-60s gossip [i]
by notta fan
 
40s-60s gossip
why do people care?
what who everyone is doing?
a modern-day night-mare
  

       as 40-something losers talk about what who others do

      40s-60s gossip
gossipers (who knew?)
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·       i joined the group to meet people, form friendships, and maybe to cultivate some female companionship.

·       while that has happened, it also seems as if the group (uh...) ‘talks’.
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[i] martino, j. (5.9-1.2025). 40s-60s gossip. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino.

        

        * i joined a 40s-60s singles group that talks-about each others' intimate lives (behind their backs, of course).

b123 (5.7-1.2025): what does "a fan" mean?

what does ‘a fan’ mean? [i]
by a. fan
 
as i fan my ego
as i make my scene
as i go as he go
 
what does ‘a fan’ mean?
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·       ‘a fan’ could mean that i like (maybe even favor?) some team, someone, or some entity.

·       ‘a fan’ could mean that i associate myself with the entity, subsequently ‘winning’ when they win and ‘losing’ when they lose.

(e.g. "i go as he go")

e.g.o.

·       ‘a fan’ could be a person who has never played a play or who has never done anything remotely close to what his team or entity does.
 
the fan, however, can become slave to his own egoic alignment with that which he worships.

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[i] martino, j. (5.7-1.2025). what does ‘a fan’ mean? book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino.

b123 (5.6-1.2025): tragically dramatic

tragically dramatic [i]
by d. rama
 
tragically dramatic (a path of happy/sad)
 
a way to pass the moment
a way to momma/dad
a way to this or that, yet a way to that or this
 
tragically dramatic (baby, give a kiss)
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·       anyone who says (and means) that they “don’t like drama” is (a) lying, or (b) bored/boring.
 
the nature of the relative world… relativity itself… is differentiated, polar, and (tragically) dramatic.
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[i] martino, j. (5.6-1.2025). tragically dramatic. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino.

* question: do you spend your hard-earned $$$ on boring movies?  do you like to eat the same, boring meal (uh) forever?

* inspired, in part, by https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xJaN7R_d45E 

* how many nights...

 ...have i slept like a baby?

i am grateful for every, single one.

* what was the best time of my life?

•  childhood:  i felt Love from mom.  i was free.  i was athletic.  one of my best moments was actually getting punched in the face (by lenny gladeau) in front of all of the boys in the neighborhood.  the embarrassment taught me to avoid fighting, and probably saved my life, several times.
• high school: it was great to learn and grow and be a football and track star at hope high school.  it was also a time of craving women (and sex), while battling with a religious fear of the exact, same thing.
• college: oh, my god, the freedom!  the girls!  the sex!  the girfriends and broken hearts!  rugby!  parties!  most of all, the decisions (e.g. rotc) that pre-paved the future.
• indianapolis: jean.  the friends.  the partying.  rugby!  the u.s. army school experiences.  the girls!  
• enterprise alabama: flight school.  helicopters.  the girls!  panama city beach!  bikinis!  lori!!
• south korea: was not a good time, but australia was!  juanita.  cheryl!
• tallahassee: the fun, the 'noles!  the partying!  the girls!  shauna!  claudia!
• savannah: pam!  the best aviation unit in the world!!
• tallahassee, II: massage school!  lori!  phd!  oh, my god the girls and girlfriends!  kristin!  sandi!  cat!
• charlotte I: spcc was not fun.  the 50th trip-abroad was.
• charlotte II: i'm in the middle of it now.  i can't say that it is the best time of my life (in regard to relationships), but it is, in regard to wisdom.

what does this all mean?

1. i've loved my life, and i've loved soooooooooooo many of the phases.

2. i've loved (and been loved by) many women.  i am thankful for every, single experience.  being loved is dramatic.

3. the best times are Now.  live.  love. wallow in the good, and learn from the not-so-good. 

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* inspired by an article about david bowie, and the time that he considered to be the best time of his life.

b123 (5.5-1.2025): "let jesus take the wheel"

       let jesus take the wheel [i]
 by ima believah
 
it jesus take the wheel
(except on 95)
(except when on my boat)
(except when my kids drive)
 
let jesus take the wheel
(except, well, every day)
let jesus take the wheel
it’s just some sh-- we say
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·       christians wear shirts and post signs that say lots of silly sh-- at others.

·       would you want to drive on a busy highway if believers really believed that they could just “let jesus take the wheel”?

·       god knows (that you know) that the last thing you’d want to do is sit-back, close your eyes, and ‘trust’ that you’ll be ‘saved’.
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[i] martino, j. (5.5-1.2025). let jesus take the wheel. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino. 

b123 (5.4-1.2025): hypergamy is real

 
hypergamy is real [i]
by e. goic
 
hypergamy is rampant (it’s just part of the deal)
hypergamy (enchantment)
hypergamy is real
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·       the manosphere tends to poo-poo ‘female’ hypergamy as if it is some type of horrific behavior…  while failing to re-cognize that male egos do the exact, same thing!

·       Truth is… every living ego is hypergamous.

·       any sentient being (including ASI) with options -- is going to seek-out and pursue those options in order to confer its own best survival/thrival.
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[i] martino, j. (5.4-1.2025). hypergamy is real. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino.

* why?

 why do i feel better about myself because 'my' team won a game?

b123 (5.3-1.2025): joal got options

      joal got options [i]
by joline femineau 
 
joal got options (robot)
joal got options (jane)
joal got options (fishing)
joal got options (rain)
joal got options (working-out, and handywork and beer)
joal got options (you can up-and-get on out of here)
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·       because joal got options, and he doesn’t need a girlfriend.  he is happy, just sitting alone (in the rain).

·      ...howevah... are there ways that you could get him to want you?
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[i] martino, j. (5.3-1.2025). joal got options. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino. 

      

      * cooking, eating, hummingbirding, walking, exercise, etc., etc., etc., etc. 

* high-t frequency

lately, my testosterone has been sky-high.

i've had more aggression, more road-rage desires, and less patience (with apparent idiots).

i need to analyze why... and take corrective action.

:)

b123 (5.2-1.2025): fake science on the airwaves

fake science on the airwaves [i]
by a. yogi & n. ott  
 
fake science on the airwaves
fake science in the news
fake pseudo-science doctors who pay pseudo-science dues
fake money-making sponges, who prey on thoughtless minds
fake science on the airwaves
fake science is unkind
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·       don’t lie to people by telling them that pseudo-scientific b.s. can cure cancer, end aging, and ‘channel’ beings who know what the Universe is thinking or how it is aligning or/and what we should do to benefit from the Universal Energy.
 
·       don’t bullsh-- gullible people!
 
on the other hand, maybe gullible people should be gullied.  more to follow, once i channel my inner-Universal Child’s past lives, energetic vortices, and quantum-reiki-cosmic-qi.
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[i] martino, j. (5.2-1.2025). fake science on the airwaves. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino. 

inpired by a video that i watched for about 3 minutes, which was 2 minutes & fifty seconds too long: https://youtu.be/W7xAyPUxT9o

b123 (5.1-1.2025): marriage

marriage [i]

by ioutta b. committed    

 

the reasons for marriage are many, and many of those reasons are flawed.

 

1.     love

  a.     love is possible (even more likely) without marriage.

2.     companionship

  a.     companionship (usually in the form of cohabitation) is possible without marriage.

  b.     the person with fewer assets will benefit more from cohabitation.

  c.      the person with less physical security will benefit more from cohabitation.

3.     economics

  a.     the person with less a$$ets will benefit more from legal union.

  b.     there may actually be economic benefits to divorce.

4.     children

  a.     it is believed that children are better-off when raised in a stable family with two, married adult parents.

  b.     children will (usually) have the same last names as their parents.

5.     the party

  a.     the wedding ceremony is a chance to show-off that one actually has successfully gotten someone else to make a lifelong promise.

  b.     friends & family unite… or at least come together in celebration.

6.     ownership

  a.     often a subliminal reason for marriage. 

  b.     the idea that one person can possess another’s love, intentions, and even thoughts.

7.     promise of forever

  a.     a leap of faith often made without really thinking the process through.

8.     sex

  a.     more, better sex was (maybe) a reason (for some, in the past).

  b.     the truth is that the best sex is probably experienced outside of marriage (for most).

  c.      sex often wanes with familiarity, life-proximity, stress, responsibilities, children, etc.

9.     fidelity

  a.     even though this is implied (overtly & covertly), many break this overt/covert promise physically, mentally and emotionally.

10.  security

  a.     ask everyone who has ever gotten married if marriage made them feel more secure.

  b.     ask the 50% who divorced, the 25% who are miserable, and the large percentage who cheat.

 

 

reasons to avoid marriage:

 

1.     divorce

  a.     in truth, many (women) benefit from divorce law.

  b.     many, many a man has “lost half of his s---” via divorce.

2.     relationship hell

  a.     relationships often devolve.  especially those that are built on promises made due to passion, needs, and insecurities.

3.     love

  a.     most people can’t even define love, let alone depend upon it.

  b.     romantic love (often) wanes.

  c.      broken love is one of the most hurtful things that one will experience.

4.     companionship

  a.     marriage is more like bondage than companionship.

  b.     if you have to be a companion (because of a law or promise), it often feels more like a forced-togetherness… which is a recipe for relationship hell.

5.     economics

  a.     most men lose resources in relationships, and especially in marriage.

6.     children

  a.     children are a huge undertaking.

  b.     children are a huge responsibility.

  c.      children are a huge financial burden.

  d.     children are a huge heartbreak.

  e.     children are a huge stressor.

  f.       while (good) children can be one of life’s greatest experiences, one bad child can be one of life’s worst nighmares.

  g.     even if children are “good kids,” there are numerous reasons why life is easier without children.

7.     the party

  a.     a waste of $$$.

  b.     could be done much more economically, without marriage.

  c.      a huge stressor.

  d.     usually all about the female-energy.

8.     ownership

  a.     the unspoken side-effect of legally sanctioned vague & unrealistic promises.

9.     promise of forever

  a.     most can’t even promise tomorrow.

10.  loss of freedom

  a.     the elimination of options (mostly for the man) for the person who is most likely to value options.

11.  responsibilities

  a.     marriage invites an unending, relentless supply of responsibilities.

12.  end of competition

  a.     another fake benefit (for the man) that actually results in less respect, less passion, and less sex.

13.  sexlessness

  a.     the very antithesis of why most men marry.

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[i] martino, j. (5.1-1.2025). marriage. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino. 

b123 (4.30-1.2025): i don't care...

i don’t care to be first-tier [i]

by seco n. d. tier    
 
Beta-plus-plus (happy)
Beta-plus-plus (ease)
Beta-plus-plus (single)
Beta-plus-plus (please!)
Beta-plus-plus isn’t biggest fish in the small pond
Beta-plus-plus (happy)
 
yes, it’s time to spawn
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·       Alpha is the king.  he is the leader.  as the “biggest fish in the pond” he attracts the 9s-10s, but:
  o   Alpha has the leadership responsibilities, leading to less fun.
  o   Alpha has Alpha-minuses, waiting to take his spot.
    §  the Alpha-minuses are sooooo focused on usurping the Alpha -- that they are often no fun at all.
  o   the 9s-10s (supermodel-level) are (often) the highest maintenance.
    §  the 9s-10s also set the social tone for other 9s-10s.
    §  some of Alpha’s harem want a more fun fish and will often swim on over to one with fewer ‘responsibilities’.

·       notice the second-tier B++ (who is not seeking to be king):
  o   he still has a harem (of 5-8s… who are much, much more fun than the 9s-10s).
    §  since he has a harem, others will want to be a part of that harem.
  o   he has little responsibility and flies under the radar.
  o   he lives a very, very, very, VERY happy life, growing old gracefully  & smiling (at ease).
 
in the final analysis, Alphas (and the 9s & 10s) are going to hit their walls.  if they haven’t cultivated personality, they (in the pack) will be left behind, unwanted and growing-old unhappily.
 
B++ will have made many happy, will have avoided empty-commitments, will have experienced less stress, and will have had options... for life.  at a minimum, he will be happy -- be-ing himself.
 
i don’t care to be first-tier.
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[i] martino, j. (4.30-1.2025). i don’t care to be first-tier. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino.

b123 (4.29-2.2025): downward-facing dog

      downward dog [i]
by a. yogi & n. ott  
 
as if, at once, i was one:
a whirlpool in the fog
a graveyard-spiral (plus 1)
a yogic, downward, dog
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·       born a male/dog, i howled.

·       i learned the love languages, the active listening, the “what a girl wants,” etc.

·       time after time, the downward spiral of a relationship pointed to the fact that i was a dog, and not as yogic as i’d tried to be.

·       is it possible that we (both men and women) are all… just downward facing dogs?
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[i] martino, j. (4.29-1.2025). downward dog. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino. 

      * a "graveyard spiral" is a tragic attempt (by a pilot who is lost in his own clouds) to correct (while over-correcting).  no visual, dependence upon human proprioception, and a failure to pay attention to the instruments.

b123 (4.28-1.2025): when anger rules the day

when anger rules the day [i]
by ima angry
 
when anger rules the day
there is no end in sight
there is no come what may
when anger rules the night
 
when anger rules, it just refuels (reciprocal/repay)
when anger rules the night, alright:
when anger rules the day
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·       why do i get so angry? 

·       is my anger stronger than most other humans?

·       is my love deeper than other humans?  why do i care so much?
 
one thing is for certain: unleashing anger will invite reciprocation, which will be a bad thing.
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[i] martino, j. (4.28-1.2025). when anger rules the day. book 123: i don’t even care. © 2024 by j. martino.