* the past is in the past...

...except for when it haunts your mind.

thoughts about a past relationship:

• it lasted from april-january (10-months), but (in reality) we were fighting within the first 30 days.
• her bpd (i wasn't sure what was going on) showed up the first time that i spent a couple of days away (on a trip that she would not attend).
• truth be told?  i knew she wasn't high value.  i would have strayed, given the opportunity.
• may was a good month,
• june was the first brawl,
• july was the thrilla-in-manilla,
• aug-oct was a roller-coaster of ups and downs,
• november was the last straw: a cut to my heart,
• december-jan was the captain save-a-ho show, and
• the end was official soon thereafter, 
• she immediately beamed s----- up (meaning: she was locked-in much earlier).

looking back on it, the 'relationship' (however toxic) was a great learning experience.