b110 (7.10-3.2022): you're blocked

you’re blocked [1]
by gotta protect & m. y. self
 
you’re blocked (on cellphone network)
you’re blocked (on email, too)
you’ve blocked (it seems there’s not too much that you can really do)
 
…but figure out a way to get your message through, today
 
you’re blocked (and now it’s up to you to find a way…)
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·       …to crush my soul – with one of your hurtful, hateful, angry, passive-aggressive, mean, curt, accusatory message – that i need to avoid reading.

if i'm aware enough (at the time) i won't get hooked-in.  ill delete, delete, shred, delete.

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[1] martino, j. (7.10-3.22). you’re blocked. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.9-9.2022): just a small transgression

just a small transgression [1]
by her
 
just a small transgression
didn’t mean a thing
dance of cat and bird? absurd!
listen to them sing
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[1] martino, j. (7.9-9.22). just a small transgression. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.9-7.2022): justa notha day

just another day [1]
by gesi sawtha signs
 
relationship destruction: a tremendous price to pay
hummingbird sips nectar
just another day
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[1] martino, j. (7.9-7.2022). just another day. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.9-6.2022): pot calls kettle 'red'

pot calls kettle “red” [1]
by isa pot
 
“end it with a period” the smoking teacher said
“you are such an __________!”
pot calls kettle “red”
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[1] martino, j. (7.9-6.22). pot calls kettle "red”. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.9-4.2022): catbird in the house

catbird in the house [1]
by ima tease
 
catbird in the house
just a little yarn
just a little hummer that is no cause for alarm
just a little pussy isn’t anything that wrong
 
catbird in the house
let me sing my song
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[1] martino, j. (7.9-4.2022). catbird in the house. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.9-1.2022): hot mail

hot mail [1]
by ima done
 
hotmail, gmail, facebook
istagram and text
when it’s in an envelope, the question is: “what next?”

when it's in the air tonight, as doggie wags her tale

when it all boils-down to her (alone) with a hot male
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·       mail… is also pretty hot… when (in the envelope) is the ending.

·       mailed it (maybe nailed it?) yesterday.
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[1] martino, j. (7.9-1.2022). hot mail. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.8-1.2022): here's how much i love you

here’s how much i love you [1]
by itsnotta h. erfault
 
here’s how much i love you
let us plant a seed
let us learn and grow from all the data we receive
le me come inside/behind/aside/below/above
let us come together
 
here’s how much i love…
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[1] martino, j. (7.8-1.2022). here's how much i love you. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.7-9.2022): just another day

just another day [1]
by guessi sawtha signs & justin otha day
 
relationship destruction: a tremendous price to pay
hummingbird sips nectar
just another day
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[1] martino, j. (7.9-7.22). just another day. book 111: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.6-1.2022) now... i understand

now… i understand [1]
by joal, looking back…
 
…why… three iterations & counting…
s---- and i don’t match-up as soul-mates, but (rather) as twin flame.
 
my (initial) elusiveness triggers her constant shit-testing, creating a cycle of wow-ignore-wow-ignore-wow-ignore… where the ignore phase is experienced as:
·       passive-aggressive
·       shit-testing
·       miss communication
·       two adults, in child-mode
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·       there is certainly something for each of us to learn, here.  we (individually) need to re-flect, re-assess, re-call, re-member, and re-new.

·       it is not up to the other to re-cycle and save/solve.
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[1] martino, j. (7.6-1.2022). now… i understand. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.5-2.2022): get her off your mind

get her off your mind [1]
by i. cant seemto
 
now it’s time to take control (the “let’s be certain” kind)
now it’s time to rock n’ roll, and
get her off your mind
_________________________________
 
1.     she needs to get help.

2.     no dating (exclusively) until (a) we both decide it’s right, and (b) only after i receive 8 therapy sessions, myself, to sort-through all of this.

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[1] martino, j. (7.5-2.2022). get her off your mind. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.5-1.2022): i don't give a f---

i don’t give a f--- [1]
by dee struction
 
i don’t give a f—
no (not anymore)
no, not any less
no, that much (for sure)
 
i’m done with all the s--t-tests, and promises, and luck
 
i don’t give a damn (no ma’am) and
i don’t give a f—
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[1] martino, j. (7.5-1.2022). i don’t give a f--k. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (7.4-1.2022): fireworks destroy

fireworks destroy [1]
by dee struction
 
fireworks allure.  they provide a momentary connection with the present.  they entertain.  they are connective, magnetic, yet unrestrained.
 
fireworks have the ability to build (ooooooo, ahhhhhh) bonds between girls and boys… and…
 
fireworks destroy.
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[1] martino, j. (7.4-1.22). fireworks destroy. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

$30 tip?

Alternative title: Red Alert!

Last night, a hot redhead hairdresser named "Elana" tipped me $30 (on a $31 tab), after flirting openly (at the Harris Teeter bar), giving me her card, and professing to be a "true blonde."  She definitely commanded the male attention at the bar, but she said she wanted to "become attached" to me. If she wasn't there with her mother, it might have been even more over-the-top.

In the past, I would have definitely jumped on that in a New York minute, but (nowadays) I'm looking at things differently.

My budding relationship (with S*) isn't worth risking for some short-term volcanic.  Another notch on the belt is not what I need.  My ego, however, was stroked.  I need to be aware.

"Elana" (although she'd be loads of fun, initially) ...would become waaaaaaay too much trouble... spraying red hair all over the house and causing commotion (at home... and at the Teeter).

Red altert!

There's trouble in paradise, even without the Elana Red Alert.  S* went vague while sh--t-testing me, and I called her on it, and it was world war III of texting.  S* and I have some issues.

• walking, exercise, hiking problems?
• trust issues, on both sides?
• kid issues, daddy issues, and mommy issues?
• the ability (for both of us) to go from zero-to-99-to-zero?
• will we actually ever be seen out, together?
• on the positive side: sex, cooking, conversations, attraction, shared values, memories...

More to follow... but the Red Alert might not be due to Elana. 

i'm culted

i’m culted [1]
by ima reli gious, iwa t. chfox, & ima culted
 
i make-believe i pray
i make-believe i choose
i watch it every day
my friends on foxy news
my racist/bigot/phobic side gets evermore insulted
 
i’m certain (yet confused) we are not gonna lose:
i’m culted
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[1] martino, j. (6.21-2.22). i’m culted. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

why i won't watch the hearings

why i won’t watch the hearings [1]
by joal
 
1.     i already know what happened.
2.     i’m going to be told what happened (by others).
3.     i’d make myself miserable, and then
4.     i’d become even more miserable.
 
i already know what happened…
he’s the ultimate narcissist, with very little need/ability to comprehend facts… especially those that he doesn’t want to hear.  he will believe anything that suits his needs.  he’s an actor, and this is his big play.
 
i’m going to be told what happened by others…
...ad nauseum.
 
i’d make myself miserable…
…being shown what i know: (1) that he knew, (2) that he planned for it, (3) that he enjoyed it, and (4) that the power-party endorses it, and him.  
 
i’d become even more miserable…
...when the left-pussy-party proves it, and when nothing happens (again), and when he/they (the right-power-partiers) get even more bold and more powerful (knowing that t[he]y can pull it off in the future, with ease).

this would double-down the misery.

*bonus misery: living in a country where 40% are openly culted by foxy newsmakers and pseudo-clergy.
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[1] martino, j. (6.21-1.22). why i won’t watch the hearings. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

let's get some on the shirt

let’s get some on the shirt [1]
by c. omfort
 
let’s get some on the shirt
and never wash it out
let’s get some on the shirt
and twist and scream and shout
 
…and never, ever… get rid of the shirt
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[1] martino, j. (6.19.11.22). let’s get some on the shirt. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

she removed a heart

she re-moved a heart [1]

by y. our journal  
 
she removed a heart
can’t be certain why
she removed a heart, but there's no need to rectify

she removed a heart (don’t let judge mental start)
a zillion billion reasons
why she re-moved a heart
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• texting can make things appear to be different than they really are.
• relax.  communicate.  observe.

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[1] martino, j. (6.19-10.22). she re-moved a heart. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

journaling thoughts

journaling thoughts [1]
by y. our journal  
 
let me share with you:
how great it is…
how easy it is…
how contemplative it is…
how visual it is…
how safe it is…
how nurturing it is…
how important it is…
 
to sit… outside, on the deck, alone, journaling thoughts
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-9.22). journaling thoughts. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

it's not the plane...

it’s not the plane… [1]
by t. h. epilot  
 
it’s not the plane, it’s the pilot*
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·       when reconstructing stories, never assume that your memories are correct.
·       check the weather.
·       get up & go!
·       think in terms of multiple, flowing continua.
·       always, always, always… give others the benefit of the doubt.
·       don’t judge.
·       fly!
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-8.22). it’s not the plane... book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.
[2] * a line in the movie: top gun: maverick. 

i guess i have a heart

i guess i have a heart [1]
by b. i. gheart 
 
i guess i have a heart
when nothing ever lasts
when life and Love and art
when Present (in the past)

when (sometimes) things get broken
when dreams (they fall apart)
when life & Love (devotion)
i guess i have a heart
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·       feeling the pain of (past) lovers… as they realize that they won’t be getting that kind of energy from me.
·       it would be heartless not to empathize with that.
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-6.22). i guess i have a heart. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

come and taste the fountain

come and taste the fountain [1]
by e. x. plosive & yet f. lowing 
 
come and taste the fountain
only you will know
all the little secrets
that make this fountain (flow)
come and bathe (in fountain)
surely you will blush
there’s no holding back now
burst-erupt and gush…
 
with/in the fountain
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-7.22). come and taste the fountain. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

pan-demic

pan-demic [1]
by divoc 91  
 
who would have ever dreamed that fun could come from the acceptance of it?
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-5.22). pan-demic. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.