Wednesday, June 22, 2022

$30 tip?

Alternative title: Red Alert!


Last night, a hot redhead hairdresser named "Elana" tipped me $30 (on a $31 tab), after flirting openly (at the Harris Teeter bar), giving me her card, and professing to be a "true blonde."  She definitely commanded the male attention at the bar, but she said she wanted to "become attached" to me. If she wasn't there with her mother, it might have been even more over-the-top.

In the past, I would have definitely jumped on that in a New York minute, but (nowadays) I'm looking at things differently.

My budding relationship (with S*) isn't worth risking for some short-term volcanic.  Another notch on the belt is not what I need.  My ego, however, was stroked.  I need to be aware.

"Elana" (although she'd be loads of fun, initially) ...would become waaaaaaay too much trouble... spraying red hair all over the house and causing commotion (at home... and at the Teeter).

Red altert!


There's trouble in paradise, even without the Elana Red Alert.  S* went vague while sh--t-testing me, and I called her on it, and it was world war III of texting.  S* and I have some issues.
  • walking, exercise, hiking problems?
  • trust issues, on both sides?
  • kid issues, daddy issues, and mommy issues?
  • the ability (for both of us) to go from zero-to-99-to-zero?
  • will we actually ever be seen out, together?
  • on the positive side: sex, cooking, conversations, attraction, shared values, memories...
More to follow... but the Red Alert might not be due to Elana. 

Tuesday, June 21, 2022

i'm culted

i’m culted [1]
by ima reli gious, iwa t. chfox, & ima culted
 
i make-believe i pray
i make-believe i choose
i watch it every day
my friends on foxy news
my racist/bigot/phobic side gets evermore insulted
 
i’m certain (yet confused) we are not gonna lose:
i’m culted
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[1] martino, j. (6.21-2.22). i’m culted. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

why i won't watch the hearings

why i won’t watch the hearings [1]
by joal
 
1.     i already know what happened.
2.     i’m going to be told what happened (by others).
3.     i’d make myself miserable, and then
4.     i’d become even more miserable.
 
i already know what happened…
he’s the ultimate narcissist, with very little need/ability to comprehend facts… especially those that he doesn’t want to hear.  he will believe anything that suits his needs.  he’s an actor, and this is his big play.
 
i’m going to be told what happened by others…
...ad nauseum.
 
i’d make myself miserable…
…being shown what i know: (1) that he knew, (2) that he planned for it, (3) that he enjoyed it, and (4) that the power-party endorses it, and him.  
 
i’d become even more miserable…
...when the left-pussy-party proves it, and when nothing happens (again), and when he/they (the right-power-partiers) get even more bold and more powerful (knowing that t[he]y can pull it off in the future, with ease).
this would double-down the misery.

*bonus misery: living in a country where 40% are openly culted by foxy newsmakers and pseudo-clergy.
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[1] martino, j. (6.21-1.22). why i won’t watch the hearings. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

Sunday, June 19, 2022

let's get some on the shirt

let’s get some on the shirt [1]
by c. omfort
 
let’s get some on the shirt
and never wash it out
let’s get some on the shirt
and twist and scream and shout
 
…and never, ever… get rid of the shirt
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[1] martino, j. (6.19.11.22). let’s get some on the shirt. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

she removed a heart

she re-moved a heart [1]
by y. our journal  
 
she removed a heart
can’t be certain why
she removed a heart, but there's no need to rectify

she removed a heart (don’t let judge mental start)
a zillion billion reasons
why she re-moved a heart
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  • texting can make things appear to be different than they really are.
  • relax.  communicate.  observe.
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-10.22). she re-moved a heart. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

journaling thoughts

journaling thoughts [1]
by y. our journal  
 
let me share with you:
how great it is…
how easy it is…
how contemplative it is…
how visual it is…
how safe it is…
how nurturing it is…
how important it is…
 
to sit… outside, on the deck, alone, journaling thoughts
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-9.22). journaling thoughts. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

it's not the plane...

it’s not the plane… [1]
by t. h. epilot  
 
it’s not the plane, it’s the pilot*
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·       when reconstructing stories, never assume that your memories are correct.
·       check the weather.
·       get up & go!
·       think in terms of multiple, flowing continua.
·       always, always, always… give others the benefit of the doubt.
·       don’t judge.
·       fly!
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-8.22). it’s not the plane... book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.
[2] * a line in the movie: top gun: maverick. 

i guess i have a heart

i guess i have a heart [1]
by b. i. gheart 
 
i guess i have a heart
when nothing ever lasts
when life and Love and art
when Present (in the past)

when (sometimes) things get broken
when dreams (they fall apart)
when life & Love (devotion)
i guess i have a heart
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·       feeling the pain of (past) lovers… as they realize that they won’t be getting that kind of energy from me.
·       it would be heartless not to empathize with that.
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-6.22). i guess i have a heart. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

come and taste the fountain

come and taste the fountain [1]
by e. x. plosive & yet f. lowing 
 
come and taste the fountain
only you will know
all the little secrets
that make this fountain (flow)
come and bathe (in fountain)
surely you will blush
there’s no holding back now
burst-erupt and gush…
 
with/in the fountain
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-7.22). come and taste the fountain. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

pan-demic

pan-demic [1]
by divoc 91  
 
who would have ever dreamed that fun could come from the acceptance of it?
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-5.22). pan-demic. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

ruby red

ruby red [1]
by alpha betaman  
 
shower me with rubies
shower me (in bed)
shower me (All over)
show me ruby red
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-4.22). ruby red. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

sandman

sandman [1]
by a. sandman
 
surrounded by sand
no one understands
the overly defensive-excessive-possessive-repressive-expressive-obsessive posture…
of the sandman
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-3.22). sandman. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

screened-in

screened-in [1]
by gd s. creens
 
build a pseudo-fortress
hot & cold (a sin)
it’s an outdoor red room
when we are:
 
screened-in
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-2.22). screened-in. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

Dance-Sing in the red room

Dancing in the red room [1]
by d. ancing
 
Dancing in the red room
Dance-Sing night and day
Dancing in the red room
please come out and Play…
 
in the red room
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-1.22). Dance-Sing in the red room. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (6.19-9.2022): journaling thoughts

journaling thoughts [1]
by y. our journal  
 
let me share with you:
how great it is…
how easy it is…
how contemplative it is…
how visual it is…
how safe it is…
how nurturing it is…
how important it is…
 
to sit… outside, on the deck, alone, journaling thoughts
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[1] martino, j. (6.19-9.22). journaling thoughts. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

Saturday, June 18, 2022

don't pre-pave alone

don’t pre-pave alone [1]
by prepa ving
 
don’t prepave alone
cultivate new friends
covid-isolation is a pathway to pretend
don’t pre-pave the future with a silly screen or phone
cultivate the Present
don’t pre-pave alone
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·       when we dedicate ourselves to one god, one way, one person, one religion, one group, or one belief-system… we pre-pave alone-ness (when that house of cards crashes down).
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[1] martino, j. (6.18.4.22). don’t pre-pave alone. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

shadow-self

shadow-self  [1]
by a. shadow
 
as i look into my shadow, only eye can see
all the things that make, forsake and break my inner me

but (as luck would have it)
come to think: good health
as i look into my lover’s eyes (my shadow-self)
_________________________________
 
·       shadows.. are merely proof that the sun is shining.
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[1] martino, j. (6.18.3.22). shadow-self. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

of minds and melds

of minds and melds [1]
by m. elding
 
of (open) minds and melds, the need to heal is never-ending
touch my mind & soul (the path to Whole) is mind & melding
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[1] martino, j. (6.18.2.22). of minds and melds. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

we are making babies

we are making babies [1]
by forni c. ation & mind m. elding
 
we are making babies
we are making time
we are making Love within a mystery, a rhyme
we are giving-in (to sin? to thought within a maybe)
we are f---ing fun!
we are making babies
_________________________________
 
·       babies… are the product of co-creating mutually-experienced moments that bear fruit.
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[1] martino, j. (6.18.1.22). we are making babies. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us.

Wednesday, June 15, 2022

she opens to the sun

she opens to the sun [1]
by shesa wave
 
she opens to the sun
her Love and wave (as One)
the day has just begun
she opens to the sun


 
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[1] martino, j. (6.15-3.22). she opens to the sun. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

i came from Nothing (really!)

i came from Nothing, really [1]
by ima nothing
 
i came from Nothing, really
i came from Nothing weak
i came from Nothing (Play-full)
i came from Nothing (seek)
i came from Nothing, yet i see abundance (All around)
i came from Nothing, Really!
i came from Nothing (sounds)…
 
like Nothing
_________________________________
 
·       some of us seem to be able to come… from (what appears to be) Nothing.
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[1] martino, j. (6.15-2.22). i came from nothing, really. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by wellnesseducation.us. 

b110 (6.15-3.2022): she opens to the sun

she opens to the sun [1]
by shesa wave
 
she opens to the sun
her Love and wave (as One)
the day has just begun
she opens to the sun


 
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[1] martino, j. (6.15-3.22). she opens to the sun. book 110: Love IS. © 2022 by joal martino.

* photo (with permission) from a friend.